Today I would have been 25 ½ weeks pregnant, had I stayed that way. I didn’t and I am not yet again pregnant. I would be feeling the baby flip and turn. If we had wished, we could even have known the sex and have chosen a name. I turned 37 a few weeks ago, A turned 40. I don’t… (more…)
We went in to see the same Dr who had done the D&E a couple of weeks ago. When we were there last we had discussed the possibility of further testing to simply make sure that all my bits were in place. In other words, what the hell are my reproductive hormones doing…? We went back in today to have… (more…)
This week has actually been a good week. A and I have been able to simply hang around home and relax. I finally feel like we are getting some home time. It’s also been a week of grieving and preparing for the end of this pregnancy. We knew by Monday that my body was noticing that the fetus had passed.… (more…)
I have been researching, trying to find anything that remotely resembles our story. I have been having difficulty so I decided to finally post my history on a couple of sites to see if anyone responds. This is what I posted: HX – PCOS diagnosed in 2002. Actively sought to get healthy while working with a Master Herbalist. For the… (more…)
I came home on Monday night with an appointment lined up to see an OB. A and I went in on Tuesday morning and had another ultrasound. The gestational sac is right on time and healthy, but no live fetus inside. My Beta HCG levels are still increasing and are within the appropriate range. He looked hard at my uterus… (more…)
Intuition is a funny thing. It’s always there and we either trust it or ignore it all the while insisting that we must be crazy. I am here at Casa and have found myself saying, ‘If there is a bean in there’, and ‘If we end up with a baby’. It really bothered my midwife friend, but it was my… (more…)
I have been hesitant to write much here lately. I feel like I have to strike a balance between sharing and privacy. I must say, this pregnancy ‘thing’ is rather consuming. If I am not thinking about it, I am wondering why I am not thinking about it. I am exaggerating a wee bit, but I am sure that the… (more…)